I tell you, this past week or so since Amanda and Lily have been on fall break have been really hard for me. It has been so hard each morning to get up and leave both of them at home to enjoy some precious time together. Lily has been such a blessing to our lives, she has been the center of so many new and unforgettable memories and moments. I know it seems that when I talk to the people who have "been there and done that", they have raised their children or many of them are currently raising their children, but when I tell them (when they ask of course) how much I have enjoyed fatherhood and then they roll their eyes and say, "just wait, your time is coming..." I want to look at them and say SHUT UP!!! I know there will be days that we will struggle through. I know there will be times when I will wander what she is thinking. I know there will be moments when I would like to just lock her up and throw away the key. But I can tell you that I will always enjoy the role God has blessed me with by being a Father to Lily!
You know I think it is all about the attitude you have. I think many people in this world already have made their minds up and that no matter what happens they will find something wrong. I try really hard not to be that way. The other day in one of our Bible classes some of the students and I were discussing some of the many things that we have a hard time understanding when it comes to the Sermon on the Mount. You know like divorce, the word of God or to be more specific Jesus says, no one should divorce except for "marital unfaithfulness". See I have a hard time understanding that....I mean what if your spouse abuses you or just ignores you and you have tried to make it right, but it just won't work. That is one of those questions I really don't fully understand. As we were having this discussion, I made the point that this might be one of those questions that I will ask God once I get to heaven. Then this hit me....when I get to heaven, I really don't think I will be thinking about those questions. I really don't think those questions will matter to me anymore, you know! Its kind of (notice I said kind of) like planning a trip to an Amusement Park. If you are like me, I always look up a map and scope out the places I want to go first as soon as I get there, but that never happens. As soon as I walk in the gates something comes over me that throws out agendas and I just go running to the nearest ride. See I am so excited to be there that I have totally forgotten all the plans and questions I had, because I am just glad to be there!! That's the way I think heaven will be (notice I said "think"). Even if God does have a question/answer session on one of the first few days after we arrive, I am not so sure I will be going....because it won't matter anymore!! Well I don't know how I got off on this tangent....
Check out the picture of our little ladybug....she is an absolute joy to have around and I without a doubt enjoy all the aspects of fatherhood both those in the present and those in the future (because I have made up my mind already)!!
Lily's Dad- Nick
You know I think it is all about the attitude you have. I think many people in this world already have made their minds up and that no matter what happens they will find something wrong. I try really hard not to be that way. The other day in one of our Bible classes some of the students and I were discussing some of the many things that we have a hard time understanding when it comes to the Sermon on the Mount. You know like divorce, the word of God or to be more specific Jesus says, no one should divorce except for "marital unfaithfulness". See I have a hard time understanding that....I mean what if your spouse abuses you or just ignores you and you have tried to make it right, but it just won't work. That is one of those questions I really don't fully understand. As we were having this discussion, I made the point that this might be one of those questions that I will ask God once I get to heaven. Then this hit me....when I get to heaven, I really don't think I will be thinking about those questions. I really don't think those questions will matter to me anymore, you know! Its kind of (notice I said kind of) like planning a trip to an Amusement Park. If you are like me, I always look up a map and scope out the places I want to go first as soon as I get there, but that never happens. As soon as I walk in the gates something comes over me that throws out agendas and I just go running to the nearest ride. See I am so excited to be there that I have totally forgotten all the plans and questions I had, because I am just glad to be there!! That's the way I think heaven will be (notice I said "think"). Even if God does have a question/answer session on one of the first few days after we arrive, I am not so sure I will be going....because it won't matter anymore!! Well I don't know how I got off on this tangent....
Check out the picture of our little ladybug....she is an absolute joy to have around and I without a doubt enjoy all the aspects of fatherhood both those in the present and those in the future (because I have made up my mind already)!!
Lily's Dad- Nick
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